Really upset over heap of stuffs recently, with this and that.... people adding fuel into fire. I don't know what I must do to satisfy two parties. I had made new friends, but my old ones are drifing away from me. Why can't people tolerate each others?


I used to confine my troubles to my brother. No one knows me other than he does, even those of my dirty little secrets..... but apparently he had no time for me anymore. His relationship is tying him down although he seems to be exultant.


What about me? I feel really happy for him, but at the same time I can't deny that a sense of jealously is brewing on my mind. I want someone whom I can rely too.... not just brotherly kind. More than it..., I'm sure.